This is a computer image (am I an artist or what) of me trying not to go "choco loco" as the wait seems to be extending beyond my lifetime. I think this might be another one of those "you need to learn to be more patient" lessons in my life. Just when I think I am making strides towards more control and patience with my kids and those around me, things happen to make me feel like I really have made no progress at all.
I honestly have to say that I am one of those little girls who has always wanted and dreamt about having my own little girl. With that in mind, I absolutely adore my boys, think they are the coolest most wonderful males on the earth, (next to my husband) and cannot imagine life without them. So now having waited around 37 years to have this dream come true I am losing patience. My dreams of pink and ponytails, my hopes of dolls and dressups and lip-gloss are oh so near and yet seem to be getting farther away as I write.
I am trying to be optimistic, but for those of you who know me well this is not easy. The wait for those who put in their paperwork in May of 2005 (ours is Nov 2005) is now at 11 months. SOOOOO unless things miraculously speed up who knows when we will be holding our bundle in pink. Please pray for things to speed up or at least for me to have the patience to make it through the wait. Thanks for listening to me rant..........
